I guess I have lessons In life tell me I need to think deeper about situationsthings are going to be better. I promise
People who can keep their cool when being told off or made fun of are not to be messed with
Can’t help it. I’ve lost what i had but trying get to get back is harder. Through the days it is harder to listen act and support...
I’ve been working my ass off at work full time along with taking classes full time. I’m exhausted. I’m only in my second week of summer classes (out of 9). Ugh, I am not liking it at all! My feet hurt so bad, and I’m so tired. But, I still have a hard time falling asleep. I’ve also had a lot going on around me, so that doesn’t help too much with my stress. It is amazing how quickly things can change. And, I’ll be dealing with an even bigger change after these classes are over!
Well, I worked this weekend. I had a pretty good time. I was SO nervous on my first day, but I got the hang of it and felt pretty good about everything. Every night (after a minimum of 8 hours standing) my feet would hurt SO BAD! Now my feet are okay, after doing nothing all day. But, my knees still hurt pretty bad and I’m exhausted still. I worked open to close three days in a row, so it’s no surprise to be feeling like this. My memorial day consisted of sleeping in (finally!!!), watching TV, napping, and writing a paper. A nice day of relaxation :] Now it’s back to school and stress :/
How was everyone’s weekend/Memorial Day?
So, I went Black Friday Shopping from 10pm-7am. Then I went to sleep around 8:30am and woke up at 2:30pm. I am exhausted and sick. My throat hurts and I’m sneezy and stuffy. It’s no fun. But, I got what I needed for my babe’s Xmas gift and a little something for my roommates and for our house. And I got a 640GB external hard drive for a steal at Walmart! It was a successful night :] My mom got what she needed too. We went to Walmart, Target, and Menard’s.We did stop by Kohl’s, but there really wasn’t anything worth the ginormous check out lines. My body was already hurting like crazy before the night started, and my hips to my feet were on fire and throbbing by the end of the “night”. But, I’m not feeling too bad anymore - which is surprising. I can’t wait to give my babe his Xmas presents :D I’m really happy with what I got him. Things are going very well with us. And, I love him very much. I didn’t think I could ever feel like this again. But, I have. And I don’t plan on ever letting it go. He’s a keeper! lol
How is everyone doing? Go BFS, and get any good deals?
I’m going to watch Drop Dead Diva and go to bed. I feel like even though I didn’t work five days in a row, I didn’t sleep very much. Then I worked yesterday and today. Sleeping in is first on my to-do list! Plus, my throat and ankles are swollen from work, so I won’t be doing much anyway. My mom is having the girls over from her work for mexican food, drinks, and swimming. It’ll be a relaxing day!!!
All I’ve been doing is working and sleeping. I’ve been SO TIRED lately. I even fell asleep around 10 watching So You Think You Can Dance with my mom.. craaazy for me. I’m pretty much falling asleep now. The last couple weeks of the season for my job are here. My last day is the 5th. But, after this next week, the waterpark is only open on weekends, which I work every day of. Most of my shifts consist of 11-Cl and 9:20-Cl (close is 6, leave by 7). I’m going to die. There’s a stretch where I work one short shift, a long shift, then a short shift again, and then two all day shifts in a row after those days. That is crazy. I’m going to die. I’m already been exhausted this week and I’ve only been working every other day this week, which is nice, but not. Since I don’t feel like I’ve been able to rest. On Tuesday, I had the day off… But, I went to the waterpark with my family and went into work for an hour and a half in the morning before that. Then today, my other day off, I babysat starting at 7. I AM TIRED. And, I’m starting to get really sore again, and my sandals from work are rubbing my feet raw again (just had them better). UGH! And, on top of that i’m having relationship problems. A nice cherry on top of my horrible week.
I’m pretty excited about my doctor’s appointment on the 31st, because I’m going to ask to be put on anxiety medication, maybe that will help with stress a bit, which will help everything else a bit more. I just need to feel better. Just a little better…
OH, and i’m excited about my tattoo! I’m getting “Fight Through the Pain” on my foot with a little purple ribbon for fibro. I have other ideas for my next ones, but I thought I’d get a simple and quick one for my first tattoo before I leave for school. It won’t be for a couple more weeks since I am a lifeguard and getting a tattoo while still working there would be a dumb idea. But, when I get it, I’ll definitely post it up! QUESTION: I know tattoos normally hurt, but does it make much of a difference for people with fibro? I’m either leaning to it’s going to hurt like hell, or because I’m so used to pain… it won’t hurt. Anyone?
Well, I’m going to bed. Sorry for not posting so much lately!
Let me know how you all are doing! I would love to hear from all of you <3
Well, it wasn’t too bad for a while. I was upset about where I was put for the day for a bit. But, It was very nice out today, almost cold. I wore my rain jacket for most of the day (partly because I had to go to a spot where water gets dumped on my multiple time.. with freezing cold water). So, I was happy I wasn’t sweating my ass off all day with way too many people for the waterpark’s own good lol. By the time I had two hours left… I was really feeling it. My toes were going raw because of my sandals, my feet just hurt from standing, I had to pee for the past couple hours, and the rest of my body was just cramping up. I survived, though!
But, on another note…
My mom got a spot removed on her arm. The doctors think it’s Melanoma. I’m freaking out. I hate cancer. Of course, no one likes cancer. So many people in my family have cancer or have died from it that I’m so scared for her and myself. I am a lifeguard, and am in the sun a lot.. so I’m not very comfortable. I just hope things go okay for my mom. We don’t even have the money to afford the treatments if she does have it… I’m so scared.