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I’ve been away from here for a while now. It’s been a good summer. My pain isn’t as bad as it was and I found a good medication for my Bipolar Disorder. I just hope I don’t gain anymore weight! I have one more quarter of classes left, yay! then I start my internship and externship. So excited to be done and start my career.
I’ve been working my ass off at work full time along with taking classes full time. I’m exhausted. I’m only in my second week of summer classes (out of 9). Ugh, I am not liking it at all! My feet hurt so bad, and I’m so tired. But, I still have a hard time falling asleep. I’ve also had a lot going on around me, so that doesn’t help too much with my stress. It is amazing how quickly things can change. And, I’ll be dealing with an even bigger change after these classes are over!
I got a call from an apartment place saying they got my application and things look good!! This is such great news! I just hope I can get a job there. And, I don’t have to see my roommate ever again! Now I will have new roommates. Hopefully that will go well. I won’t meet them until the 24th. I passed my Kinesiology class, and got A’s in my other classes. Now, I’m just in my house, relaxing. I’ll be alone for two weeks. Hopefully I find something to do!!! lol.
Well, now that my roommate is pretty much packed up, I can move shit around and get stuff done around the house. This makes me so happy and comfortable. All she does is sit in her room now, so I don’t ever have to see her! It’s amazing. I just applied for an apartment for the fall when I transfer. I don’t see myself getting a place without a co-signer… we will see lol. I also have applied to jobs in that area. I hope things go smoothly! I had my lab practical today… It wasn’t horrible. I could have done better though. Oh well. I don’t know my grade, yet. Then I have my presentation on Comp tomorrow along with my online final for my OTA class. Then my lecture final on Wednesday… AND I’M DONE WITH SPRING QUARTER!! WOOHOO! I can’t wait to be done! Then I have two weeks off, go home for a weekend, and then start Summer Quarter. Busy, Busy, Busy! I’m excited about next quarter because I’m taking Pathophysiology.
On the other hand:
I am super sore. My hips down hurt pretty bad. I’m not sure why, either. Usually there’s some type of small reason, whether it makes sense or not.. But not this time. I haven’t really done anything! Thanks Fibro.
Finals weeks starts tomorrow! AHHH! My lab practical for Kinesiology is tomorrow, then I have a presentation in Comp I on Tuesday, and my Kinesiology lecture final Wednesday. Phew… not many finals, but Kinesiology is so stressful and difficult. Wish me luck!
On the other hand… I worked Friday-Sunday, open to close again. It wasn’t too bad but my legs and feet hurt bad for no reason. I wasn’t even standing all day the past two days. The arch in my foot hurts pretty bad.. with a sharp pain and my inner thighs hurt like I did squats or something (which I didn’t lol). My brain fog is bad and my head has been hurting… AND my sugar levels have been dropping more frequently. It usually only happens like once a month, and it’s happened every day this weekend! Crazy stuff. Probably my stress.
I lack motivation. And then some days I have too much! I haven’t had much motivation for my classes though. I don’t need them for my program anymore, so I’m just not into it anymore. I need to get back into my game because I need to keep my GPA up, anyway. I can’t wait to move to the other campus for my program. I’m so excited! I need to find a job there and get accepted for the apartment… but I’m hoping it will go smoothly. Then, I need to get into the program (takes 4 people a year!). It’ll be tough, but I know I can do it. I need to get rid of this fibrofog, though! It drives me nuts. I draw blanks all the time or I forget things constantly. I never walk out the door without forgetting something. I had to go back upstairs twice because I forgot something. And, when I do laundry, I either forget my quarters or the laundry detergent! It never fails. I’ve been happy that I’ve been cleaner lately. I’ve been liking cleaning a lot more now, it’s kind of therapeutic. However, my roommate is not the same way… so I get really pissed when she’s such a slob. I can’t handle it! Good thing my neat-freak friend asked if I wanted to get a townhouse with her for the Fall quarter! I’m really excited about that.
I need to keep my chin up!
How is everyone else doing?
Well, it’s snowing now and the pain sucks. I was sitting in class for 4 hours and thought I was going to die. My shoulders, and hips were on fire! I hate weather changes like this, because my body obviously doesn’t like it. And, the shaking isn’t getting any better, still.
classes have been ok. I’m a little overwhelmed by my A&P II class, but I’m sure everything will work out fine. It kind of has too anyway. I have ways to get help if I need it, anyway. I’ve been doing ok. I’ve had dumb bumps on my tongue for a couple days now, and they hurt :[ I hate it when that happens for no reason at all! My shaking isn’t too bad today, a lot better than yesterday at least. And, seeing that I’m typing wayyy better, yeah that’s an improvement! The pain isn’t too bad again today. My hips are a little tender and my tummy hasn’t been feeling the greatest, but hey.. it’s a good day! and a nice day at that!
I hung out with my favorite roomie for a little bit, I miss her! So, I’m going to hang out with her tomorrow too!
By the way, you all should make a Patientslikeme.com account. It is a cool tool to keep track of how your days are and have been and see other people that deal with the same things as you. try it out! It definitely paints a picture when I can see charts of my levels of pain/fatigue/etc in charts! lol
I hope everyone is feeling well.
Well, I’m pretty much living with my boyfriend now. I still am technically living with my other roommates because I can’t legitimately move in with him because the college is against coed living. But, it’s ok to be here as long I don’t bring all of my stuff here. So, yey! and I’m living with our good friend. We’ll see how it goes. I like it so far. And things are going really good in our relationship. I am very happy.
First day of classes for the second quarter was today. I just had A&P II, so it wasn’t too bad. Tomorrow I have Abnormal Psychology, which I’m SO excited for! Even though I’m not going into psychology, it has always interested me. It’s required anyway lol.
My shaking continues. I really hope that it goes away, but it almost feels worse than before. My hands normally haven’t been shaking if I have them on a surface, it kind of keeps it stable. But, now that isn’t the case. It’s a constant shaking. *sigh*. Side effects are dumb lol.
Well, from what I can tell, hips problems are pretty “normal” for people with fibro. I did get the hip back in place because it feels way better, but it is still acting up and hurting really bad. I don’t know what to do about it. I use a heating pad, which makes it feel better, but there really isn’t much else I can do. I don’t have many pain meds, and I don’t like taking meds anyway, so I’m just waiting it out. IF it still hurts by Thanksgiving break I am going to see if I can go to the doctor to get it checked out, because I can’t stand it anymore.
On the bright side of things… I’m doing really well at college. Classes are reasonably easy and interesting. There is some stress involved, of course, but because of Zoloft I am definitely handling it better. My new boyfriend is great, and we are taking things slow. I get along with him SO well, and I never thought anyone could have so many things in common with me. I’m just very comfortable. I don’t think any of my relationships have gone so smoothly and easy in the beginning like this one. But, I do understand that this is the beginning and things will change and things might not be as they seem, but I’m happy right now. That’s all that matters :]
How’s everyone’s week going?