April 2013
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I’ve been doing great. The cymbalta has been working pretty good and I was put on tramadol for the extra pain. I haven’t felt this good in years.
So….
I ended up in the hospital for 6 days and found out I’m bipolar. This is shocking news for me, but I’m on great meds now. I still have flare ups, so I’m going to see a different doctor. I think the whole reason I had a breakdown to end up in the hospital is because I was put on a high dose of Cymbalta too fast and cut off of Zoloft. Now I’m feeling balanced and...
March 2013
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Ever feel like you’re going nowhere? That’s how I’ve been feeling. I don’t know what is ahead. Yeah, I’m going to college for a career. But, then again I feel like I’m working towards nothing. I have no drive. All I worry about is bills and my fibro. I don’t have time for anything else, at least it feels like it. And, when my boyfriend goes out of town for...
November 2012
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I am in a great mood, and I’m not even sure why lol. I hurt pretty bad and nothing good is really happening… but I’m happy. Maybe this is just a one day thing. Who knows. I finished my antibiotics yesterday and my throat is still swollen, but the white spots are about gone. And, the antibiotics will still be in my system for a few more days. So, hopefully this is the last of the...
Still have strep.
It’s been a month today. I went back to the walk-in clinic and now I’m on Azithromycin. Let’s see how this one goes. I’m so tired of being sick. I’m tired and this is so painful. Way more painful than last month. BLEH!
October 2012
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Update.
I’m still getting over my strep. For some reason I’m not feeling better, which doesn’t make sense. I’ve been taking my antibiotics as directed about 5 days now. This is ridiculous. I want to feel better.
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Down with the sickness!!
DRUM ROLL PLEASE….
STREP!
Yeah, I finally found a walk-in clinic and they did a rapid strep test. I definitely have strep. It’s a good thing I didn’t wait it out. That would have ended badly. I’m a little worried because I’ve either had abdominal pain or nauseousness the past two days. Hopefully nothing spread. I really can’t afford anything worse. I’m...
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Still sick.
I thought I was getting over whatever I have a couple days ago.. But today my throat has been on fire and my joints are killing me. My right thigh has been cramped up for the past 2 days, and I don’t know why. It hurts so bad, like I pulled it (but I haven’t). I’m going to find a doctor and hopefully get in Thursday before my night class. Maybe I’ll talk to the doc about...
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Sick
Well, I’ve been sick for over a week now. It’s just some crappy cold. I got some sudafed and that didn’t work so I got some advil cold and sinus. It has helped a little bit. The main symptom is a major sinus headache and painfully swollen lymphnodes. Ugh. Hopefully I get over this soon. Having a weak immune system sucks…
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work will be the death of me!
So, I’m a pharmacy tech and this is about my 2nd week. I’m still getting used to everything… it is such a stressful job!! My knees and lower back are killing me right now! And, I have lost 6 pounds since i started because I can only fit in one meal a day. I rarely can eat in the mornings because i get nauseous and then I don’t get to eat until i get out of my 8 hour shifts....
September 2012
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Men.
There are three main men in my life. Two are exes and one is my current boyfriend. The two exes actually rank higher in my heart. That is probably a bad sign. Ex#1 was my first everything. And, I will always love him. He was amazing. There were a couple things that split us up. And a big pushy problem on his part.. I wasn’t ready for him. Thinking of it now, I feel like if we dated now...
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Bad day
My boyfriend stayed the past two nights. It was nice to have him around. He’s been more open and talkative so I’ve started liking him more. I started talking to my ex without wanting to hurt myself or him. It’s nice and I really miss him. I wish things could have gone as planned.. before I met my new boyfriend. Things could have been so much different and maybe I’d be...
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I miss..
Dad (RIP March 16 2012)
Mom
My Ex, Brian
My old life
Illinois
Muskegon
My boyfriend
A man lying next to me in bed at night
a hand to hold…
Pain-free days
Stress/anxiety-free days
Dad: I miss you so much, and I can’t believe you are gone. Your daughter wants to contact me, the one I never met and didn’t even know about up until a year or two ago. I wish you never...
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Got the JOB!
I will now be a pharmacy tech for Walgreens. And not the Walgreens I was talking about yesterday. It’s a nicer one across town. I am so excited. A job I actually WANTED, and I GOT IT! I was freaking out all night last night about the fact that it had been almost a week and I had heard nothing back from them. PHEW! That’s one less thing to stress about.
On a Fibromyalgia note:
My...
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Medication Mayhem
So, I’ve been taking Zoloft 50 mg for about a year now. For a week, my doctor said I should take two a day to see if it helps with my fibro. Well, it only caused problems so he told me to just go back to the normal dosage. Well, that was like six months ago or more. I had to call the doctor for a refill and they didn’t seem to realize that I was still taking 50 mg and...
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F.A.K.E.
You wonder, how far can someone go with a game. You would never think a person would say “I love you” and not mean it.. but it happens every day… But to propose engagement and move forward with getting an apartment? Yes, that happens too. That happened to me. I never imagined someone would go that far with a game, and be that good at it for that long. It’s a lifestyle for...
If you have ever taken a razor blade to that...
August 2012
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Ouch!
I got the Depo Shot for birth control yesterday, and now I’m in pain EVERYWHERE! Ugh. Must have triggered a Fibro Flare. It’s expected to hurt at the injection site, but everywhere? Oh well. At least in 6 days time I can’t get pregnant for a while :D
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Too much change.
It’s hard to believe everything I have done in the past year. I never thought I’d be standing where I am now. A year ago, when I was getting ready for my move to Michigan for school, I was scared and excited. I was with my first true love, and things were rocky. But, I loved him with all my heart and wanted things to work out; regardless of distance. Well, that didn’t last long....
Phew!
I am completely moved into my apartment. My mom left Monday, and my boyfriend just left a little bit ago. It’s weird that I’m all alone. I will definitely be getting pepper spray! I’m exhausted and now I have to find a job. AHHH! Wish me luck.
This has definitely been stressful on my body!!
How is everyone doing?
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Well, I have met someone else. Yeah, I know I move fast, but that’s how I’ve always been. I still love my ex-fiance, but I’ve given up. I’m ready for the next chapter. I don’t like dwelling on the past anymore, it just makes me depressed. This guy is unlike any guy I’ve ever hung out with. I haven’t been sleeping much, I’m in a ton of pain, and I...
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Up and down.. and all around!
It has been a whirlwind of emotions and events the past few weeks. I don’t even know what to focus on anymore. My ex-fiance and I are talking and it is going ok. I am also talking to another ex that I haven’t talked to in like 10 months or so. That is also going good. I don’t understand what is going on with that picture lol.
On the other hand, my pain isn’t the greatest....
cindyd1223 asked: hi, if 17 years old and i was diagnosed my in Feb. but i have been feeling the symptoms since i was 13 but this year im starting to go to college in the NYC. any advice if u have any? also how do you meet people with this? doesn't it scare you that o one will want you because you're tired and in pain all the time? congratulation on your engagement!
July 2012
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send-in-your-skeletons asked: hai! i have fibromyalgia as well and i just wanted to remind you to stay strong <3
It gets better!! (sarcasm)
Found out that my ex fiance had been cheating on me… this has been killing me mentally and physically.
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Just awesome. not.
I am no longer engaged. Yep, out of nowhere too. Pain is horrible.
illsharemyspoonswithyou asked: Hey there! I saw your post about how tired you've been. This might sound nuts, but, have you tried exercising? I have fibro too, as well as a connective tissue disease, so I was positive exercising was not for me. But my fitness class required it, and it's done wonders for me! I've been doing a lot of weight-lifting, and my fibro has hardly acted up since I've started it!...
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Will I ever get used to this?
I’ve been working my ass off at work full time along with taking classes full time. I’m exhausted. I’m only in my second week of summer classes (out of 9). Ugh, I am not liking it at all! My feet hurt so bad, and I’m so tired. But, I still have a hard time falling asleep. I’ve also had a lot going on around me, so that doesn’t help too much with my stress. It is...
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Dizzy
Well, here’s a new one! I’m dizzy :[ I was dizzy all day, so I wasn’t even able to work. I’m pretty upset. I’m not dehydrated or over-tired. I have no idea why this is happening. I do need to change my birth control, and maybe it has something to do with my birth control. It’s been really messing with my body lately. But, it could also just be my fibro....
A day in the life: Serotonin Levels and... →
heathersday:
Serotonin levels and fibromyalgia are integrated when it comes to how we deal with our fibromyalgia symptoms.
I’ve talked about serotonin before. It’s a neurotransmitter (chemical that sends a specific message from one brain cell to another) that is believed to play an important role in…
June 2012
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To a new start!
A lot is changing. I’m getting a new engagement ring since I lost my old one. I like this because I can go a little pricier and personal with this one. I might even keep it as my ring after the wedding instead of the really expensive one I wanted. There’s a wedding band that can go with it too :] On Friday, I’ll be going back home to Illinois for the weekend for my dad’s...
jeffersondells asked: What is your favorite day of the week?
-ifeelcelestial asked: I just thought I would mention my experience with exercise after the question you just got! I was doing pretty good with lifting weights and exercising, but got off track recently. I just started back up again and I'm SUPER sore today, and probably will be for the next few days. But the same thing happened last time and it got much better once my muscles got used to it. So to the person who...
x-the-flame-thats-in-her-eyes-x asked: worse than just 'sore'. Is this nature's way of telling me lifting weights isnt an option? Or do I just have to do ti even MORE often to get mu muscles used to it? The pain is so bad still today, it probably will still linger until weekend. No one understands the pain I'm in :( Do I push through it and train to make my body stronger? Or can I never get past this...
x-the-flame-thats-in-her-eyes-x asked: Hey girl, question for you. So I've been trying SO hard to get out of my depression-funk and getting back on track with being healthy - exercising, eating well, etc. And 2 days ago at the gym I killed it and lifted heavy doing squats, deadlifts, etc. But for the 2 days after (and even as I sit writing this) my quads are in absolute agony from my Fibro. Like.. I'm not exaggerating.....
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I am strong... and I need to keep telling myself...
I am so happy to be the fiancee to a wonderful man. He is amazing. We work so well together, and with this whole apartment thing working out, this is looking great. I just wish I was mentally happy. I don’t want to be depressed or “sick” anymore. I need to tell myself that every day is an obstacle that I am overcoming. I am strong! I can do whatever I set my mind on. I just need...
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this is great!
I got a call from an apartment place saying they got my application and things look good!! This is such great news! I just hope I can get a job there. And, I don’t have to see my roommate ever again! Now I will have new roommates. Hopefully that will go well. I won’t meet them until the 24th. I passed my Kinesiology class, and got A’s in my other classes. Now, I’m just in...
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Well, now that my roommate is pretty much packed up, I can move shit around and get stuff done around the house. This makes me so happy and comfortable. All she does is sit in her room now, so I don’t ever have to see her! It’s amazing. I just applied for an apartment for the fall when I transfer. I don’t see myself getting a place without a co-signer… we will see lol. I...
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Stressed out!
Finals weeks starts tomorrow! AHHH! My lab practical for Kinesiology is tomorrow, then I have a presentation in Comp I on Tuesday, and my Kinesiology lecture final Wednesday. Phew… not many finals, but Kinesiology is so stressful and difficult. Wish me luck!
On the other hand… I worked Friday-Sunday, open to close again. It wasn’t too bad but my legs and feet hurt bad for no...
lupuslaura asked: HELLO. my name is laura and i also have fibromyalgia. im trying to reach out to people who have it for support and just to talk to. no one i know has it and they dont fully understand what i go through, so im trying to find those that can!
May 2012
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This week FLEW by!
Next week is finals week, and then break. SO SOON!? I’m pretty stressed about my Kinesiology finals. We’ll see how it goes. I’m dog sitting for a friend and working, so hopefully I can get study time in. I’m feeling pretty good. I’ve been feeling really blue for the past couple weeks, and now I’m feeling more energized and happy. Physically, I could be better...
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Phew!
Well, I worked this weekend. I had a pretty good time. I was SO nervous on my first day, but I got the hang of it and felt pretty good about everything. Every night (after a minimum of 8 hours standing) my feet would hurt SO BAD! Now my feet are okay, after doing nothing all day. But, my knees still hurt pretty bad and I’m exhausted still. I worked open to close three days in a row, so...
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No energy to do anything.
I don’t know what my problem is. My fatigue is ridiculous! I can’t even get myself to write my paper. Good thing it isn’t technically due tomorrow. We could choose which day. So, I’m just going to relax and sleep in tomorrow. Hopefully I feel better before the job starts on Friday. I’ll be doing a lot of standing!
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One Year.
Wow, it’s been exactly one year since I started this Tumblr page. It has made quite a difference and I have met many wonderful people. A lot has changed since then. I went from being in an abusive relationship, in Illinois and high school, and being so shallow and boring… to now being engaged to the best man in the world, in Michigan and going to college, and having a new view on the...
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hannah-fibromyalgia-1992 replied to your post:...
Hey, Hannah! My name is Hannah as well :]
I’m sorry you’re having flare-ups. But It’s good everyone is understanding. That tends to make everything a little better. I haven’t really had any major flare-ups. Now that I’ve had a pretty regular workout routine, I’m actually started feeling a tad better. Although the soreness still creeps up on me. Just a little...
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Finally.
Tomorrow I have orientation for my job. This orientation is from 4-7 p.m. :/ I am not looking forward to it. And, I’m nervous about training. But, after that I get a nice getaway weekend with my fiance. We are going to my future hometown to stay. We got a hotel room, going out to dinner and a movie… I’m so excited! We’ve never really been able to do this type of thing...
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My relationship with Tumblr seems to be changing.
I used to find this site as a release and a place for people to meet and share their stories… and help each other in this fight. Now it’s different. And, I rarely see anyone being nice or being there for each other. It’s all turned into some type of highlight on self harm and destructive behaviors.
