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well, time is flying by. I might be pregnant and the guy won’t be in my life. Child support it is. I’m super upset and hope I’m not, but the odds are against me. I don’t know what I’ll do, but abortion isn’t one of them. I will take full responsibility for my actions. I just hate that things have gone the way they have. Once I said I wouldn’t abort it, he flipped and now just doesn’t want anything to do with me. I feel neglected. I’m super nauseous and my hips and back are killing me. My thanksgiving has turned into hell.
Well, a lot has changed in my life. I’m not medicated at all for my Fibromyalgia right now. But my meds for bipolar disorder are going great. I’m still not 100% but I’ll get there. I’ll be moving back home in 3 weeks and end my job in 2 weeks. It will definitely be a change. I’m not ready for packing yet!
Well, I’m working all weekend… yay. I’m always so tired and my feet hurt all the time. I wish I could just call in. But, I can’t and I need the money.
I’ve been away from here for a while now. It’s been a good summer. My pain isn’t as bad as it was and I found a good medication for my Bipolar Disorder. I just hope I don’t gain anymore weight! I have one more quarter of classes left, yay! then I start my internship and externship. So excited to be done and start my career.
I’ve been doing great. The cymbalta has been working pretty good and I was put on tramadol for the extra pain. I haven’t felt this good in years.
I ended up in the hospital for 6 days and found out I’m bipolar. This is shocking news for me, but I’m on great meds now. I still have flare ups, so I’m going to see a different doctor. I think the whole reason I had a breakdown to end up in the hospital is because I was put on a high dose of Cymbalta too fast and cut off of Zoloft. Now I’m feeling balanced and energetic… oh, and HAPPY.
Ever feel like you’re going nowhere? That’s how I’ve been feeling. I don’t know what is ahead. Yeah, I’m going to college for a career. But, then again I feel like I’m working towards nothing. I have no drive. All I worry about is bills and my fibro. I don’t have time for anything else, at least it feels like it. And, when my boyfriend goes out of town for work, he just disappears. It makes me wonder if I’m going through the same thing as my ex. He cheated and lived two lives. One with her and one with me. Is it happening again? or what? What else could it be. He’s not working now, it’s too late… My mind wanders when I don’t hear from him. He said he’d call a bit later… it’s been hours. He would have called by now. He isn’t like this when he’s in town. It freaks me out, I don’t want to be stupid, just another stupid and ignorant girl. It drives me crazy. And, I’m quitting smoking. I have nicotine patches now, and i haven’t smoked a cigarette since this morning, but this makes me want to tear the patch off and buy a pack!
I am in a great mood, and I’m not even sure why lol. I hurt pretty bad and nothing good is really happening… but I’m happy. Maybe this is just a one day thing. Who knows. I finished my antibiotics yesterday and my throat is still swollen, but the white spots are about gone. And, the antibiotics will still be in my system for a few more days. So, hopefully this is the last of the strep! My fish got ick and now I’m down to two fish :/ it’s sad because I spent a good amount of money on these fish, and I actually enjoyed them lol. I guess I’ll wait until this treatment is completely over and get more.
Tomorrow I’ll be going on a date with a guy I’ve seen a couple times. He’s a bit older, but his personality is amazing. We click so well, and things are just going really good. I have no idea what is going to come out of it, but that’s part of the fun.
On Thursday I will be going home for the weekend. Well, I’ll be home and then I’m going to help them move some stuff to the new house 3 hours south of where they are now… So “home” is going to be a 6 hour drive after this weekend :/ kind of sucks because I was at the house for 10 years and that’s the longest I was ever at a house. But, I guess I’m never going back anyway. I’ll just be sleeping on a couch on visits :P
It’s been a month today. I went back to the walk-in clinic and now I’m on Azithromycin. Let’s see how this one goes. I’m so tired of being sick. I’m tired and this is so painful. Way more painful than last month. BLEH!
I’m still getting over my strep. For some reason I’m not feeling better, which doesn’t make sense. I’ve been taking my antibiotics as directed about 5 days now. This is ridiculous. I want to feel better.
DRUM ROLL PLEASE….
Yeah, I finally found a walk-in clinic and they did a rapid strep test. I definitely have strep. It’s a good thing I didn’t wait it out. That would have ended badly. I’m a little worried because I’ve either had abdominal pain or nauseousness the past two days. Hopefully nothing spread. I really can’t afford anything worse. I’m on Amoxicillin 875 tablets, which I don’t think my pharmacy even carries. But, I went to the one closer to me (not the one I work at). And he put me on Tylenol/codeine #3 since my lymph nodes are so swollen - it’s painful. it could be the tylenol that is making me feel so queasy. I’m not sure. I drove to my class (an hour away) at 7:30 am and ended up leaving my class at 10:30 am because I felt like total crap. Then I slept till 2:30 after I got home. Then went to work. I felt okay then because I was so busy that I don’t have time to be sick. Now I’m back to feeling like total shit. I think I felt better before all the meds lol.
I thought I was getting over whatever I have a couple days ago.. But today my throat has been on fire and my joints are killing me. My right thigh has been cramped up for the past 2 days, and I don’t know why. It hurts so bad, like I pulled it (but I haven’t). I’m going to find a doctor and hopefully get in Thursday before my night class. Maybe I’ll talk to the doc about meds for my fibro. We will see. I’m so tired of being sick!!
Well, I’ve been sick for over a week now. It’s just some crappy cold. I got some sudafed and that didn’t work so I got some advil cold and sinus. It has helped a little bit. The main symptom is a major sinus headache and painfully swollen lymphnodes. Ugh. Hopefully I get over this soon. Having a weak immune system sucks…
So, I’m a pharmacy tech and this is about my 2nd week. I’m still getting used to everything… it is such a stressful job!! My knees and lower back are killing me right now! And, I have lost 6 pounds since i started because I can only fit in one meal a day. I rarely can eat in the mornings because i get nauseous and then I don’t get to eat until i get out of my 8 hour shifts. So, one meal it is… when I’m working. Then i barely eat anymore anyway. I just haven’t felt too great or I’m just too lazy lol.
AHH MY LEGS ARE THROBBING!!